My births have never been simple or easy. I was so excited to get to have Crystal Gathright as my nurse because I knew she would be an excellent coach during the labor process while working to keep me and my baby safe. Safety is always my number one goal in labor. I always put that as my first priority. I tell every nurse I have my only goal is to keep my baby safe. Little did I know that my labor would turn into an emergency. Words cannot describe the fear and panic I felt as my worst nightmare of what could happen during a TOLAC was unfolding before my eyes.

My main focal point and touchstone to reality besides my family was Crystal and my doctor. I was filled with anxiety and mixed emotions, as all I could feel was the horrible pain during contractions, but I kept holding onto the fact that Crystal and my doctor were not going to leave my side. As pain clouded my vision and I could barely breathe, I calmed my innermost self by stating over and over in my head that Crystal was there and was going to keep my baby safe. Although I was terrified to go under general anesthesia and be completely asleep and miss the first moments and hours of my new baby's life, I knew Crystal would be there. I knew Crystal would be there when I couldn't.

Not only did Crystal go above and beyond for me and my new baby in the OR, but she also stayed late and held my hand the entire time in PACU. Crystal was the first face that I saw when I woke up and the first person to tell me that my beautiful baby girl was delivered and safe.

Again, words can not describe the gratitude I felt that Crystal was there and kept us both safe. Crystal will always hold a special place in my heart, not only as a coworker or fellow mom friend but as my labor nurse. My labor nurse who put everything aside and held my hand, wiped my tears, fixed my makeup, and never left my side.