March 2013
Deidre Kibbe and
Nurses of the Women's Pavilion
,
RNs
Women's Pavilion
Memorial Hospital - University of Colorado Health
Colorado Springs
,
CO
United States

 

 

 

Dear wonderful nurses in the Women's Pavilion,

You won't remember me, but I remember you. One year ago today I was a patient of yours. I lost my baby boy at 17 weeks and had to deliver him there. It was a terrible day, yet I look back at the experience and recall more than anything else, your kindess. Your compassion and care. I know I was a mess during my time in your care. Your last glimpse of me was a broken hearted, devastated shell of a person being wheeled out in a wheelchair in tears. I've wanted to let you know that I am okay. That you really helped me, even though I couldn't express that at the time.

I will never forget how amazing you all are. How you are able to be strong, yet also so sensitive. How much you bent over backwards to make our stay as comfortable as possible. Thank you! Thank you for letting me just cry. Thank you for holding my hand. Thank you for capturing tiny baby footprints, for always treating our baby as a real baby - not a "fetus". I treasure the keepsakes that you lovingly created for us. I am forever touched and changed by the way I was treated in your care. I felt safe. Do you how much that means to me? To anyone? I hope that you do.

I hope you know that regardless of your beliefs, you really are used by God to heal and nurture in a miraculous way. Maybe you don't always see that as you deal with painful ordeals such as miscarriages, but there is a deeper emotional healing that begins with you. You may have shared in the worst day of someone's life, but your care means the world to someone as they begin to grieve and then heal.

Now, a year later, I am pregnant with twin girls. 30 weeks along with two healthy babies! I wanted you to know that me and my family - we survived. We mourned, grieved, grew and healed. It's been quite a journey - one that you were definitely a part of. I always wonder if you get to hear about a happy ending. I'm sure there are many of them, many similar stories to ours. I sure hope you feel encouraged knowing how much you are appreciated and that your saddest patients go on to have happiness again.

Thank you so much for all you do!! God bless you!